I have no where else to turn to so I thought I'd share my thoughts here. I notice for a quite a number of years I suffer from depression. It seems as though when I get into a relationship with someone is where it peaks, I recently ended my long distance relationship with someone I've gotten close to. Mainly it was my fault but he's going through his own stress and says he needs time. He's sort of the reason why I'm hurting although I know I'm the one who decided to end it because of my trust issues yet I still want to be with him? I dunno what's wrong with me..usually I'm able to cope with my stress but lately I've been feeling the need to end things. I've tried focusing on my school work, but certain classes stress me, work is stressful I feel as though I have no scape goat. I go to the gym when I can to burn off some steam. Still I can't help but focus on all the negative things in my life. My friends seem selfish I really don't want to tell them what's going on because I can never keep a relationship, I'm quite embarrassed. I have a psychiatrist but due to me switching insurance I can't see him anymore. I prayed about it still to no avail I can't seem to shake it off. Any suggestions would be helpful. Thank you.